I miss you.

Salam all.

Rindu sangat rasa pada parents. They came to KL masa majlis bertandang just for three days then balik kelantan terus. Masa nak hantar diorang balik, I tahan je rasa nak menangis. After dah wave goodbye and my parents masuk boarding hall, dah tak nampak dah kelibat dorang. I terus break down and cry. Yes. Kat LCCT. ( I wont cry in front of my parents. I dont know why)
I tak boleh tengok muka my parents esp my dad. It was so sad to see them leaving me.
Of course all of people were looking at us. Actually at me. Hezri rasa malu, he kept on saying,
"Mesti semua orang pikir abang buat jahat kat you"

Pfft. Ive been missing my parents everyday almost all day.even masa honeymoon.
Semalam i called my mum, and dia cerita dia tak boleh tidur 2-3 malam ni asyik terfikir pasal I accident hari tu. Macam mana i merangkak keluar seorang diri. Macam mana I boleh face the accident alone.
If only i can be there for her to tell everything is okay.

Setakat ni I tak berani lalu jalan gerik tu lagi. I am waiting to go back with hezri. 3 weeks lagi. Maksudnya sebulan ni I tak jumpa my parents langsung. It is too long for me. Way too long. I miss them so badly.

Before i sleep tonight, I tengok balik our family photos. Bad idea.
Now im crying like a baby.
Call me whatever. I dont care.

If you duduk dekat ngan your parents or still living with them, you are the luckiest people in the world. Appreciate the chance.

Even gaji you banyak, even you are one of the richest. You cannot buy time.

Use your time wisely. While you still can.

Xoxo!