Let the bad times roll

Salam all,

Im staring at the laptop screen for hours and revert the post into draft many times. I dont know how to start.
But I do know I need to talk about it.

I rasa ramai dah tahu I met with an accident last saturday. On the way balik from gerik to kelantan.
Masa jadi, I tengah lalu selekoh kiri and my car terbabas ke kanan.
Dalam sekelip mata, I was upside down in the car. Alhamdullilah, I pakai seatbelt masa semua ni berlaku. ( normally I tak suka pakai seatbelt)

Masa tu hujan renyai-renyai and jalan licin, I was driving alone. 3 1/2 hours journey from gerik to kelantan memang normal. Kadang-kadang I balik waktu malam, ada I gerak pukul 5 pagi balik, seorang diri, jadi jalan tu memang dah biasa I lalu.

Mungkin nasib I kurang baik hari tu, I terbabas. Masa mula-mula accident, I ingat I rasa sangat takut. Takde orang berhenti untuk tolong. sebab takde kereta lain masa kejadian ni berlaku.

I stuck dalam kereta for 10min, tergantung kat seatbelt. I pakai dua phones. Satu phone guna number maxis for call & sms, satu lagi smartphone for data plan & broadband. I nak capai phone maxis kat seat sebelah. tapi tak sampai. Phone yang dataplan je ada tapi phone ni tak boleh call or sms.

I whatssap a few contacts and Hezri. But they asked too many questions. and Hezri maybe tak perasan my whatssap . At that time i was stucked in the car. I need help. I need someone to call the police. I posted on facebook, minta tolong, try to post many times but failed. Kawasan bukit kat gerik, what do you expect? Memang susah nak dapat line. After 10 min ( lebih kurang) I rasa susah nak bernafas. dengan my position yang terbalik and seatbelt menahan badan I. So I bukak seatbelt and jatuh atas windscreen kereta yang dah pecah.
I tolak tolak pintu kereta and merangkak keluar, masa tu takde orang berhenti lagi. I lambai-lambai kat kereta yang lalu and diorang tengok je I tapi tak stop. I give up. I baring kat tepi jalan. Rupanya kawasan tu selekoh so orang tak boleh berhenti. Diorang kena pusing dulu kat depan baru datang. So masa orang sampai, towing truck also came. After that baru polis datang.

I was sent to Hosp Gerik terus, sebab my left hand tak boleh gerak, jeans I penuh dengan kaca. Ada cuts kat tapak tangan and lutut. I sakit dada juga, maybe sebab terhentak.

On that day, I memang okay. I manage to stay calm and pergi check up kat hosp, dapat injection, dah xray semua, I pergi balai polis buat report. dah settle semua baru hezri and his mum sampai from KL. My parents pula sampai 15min later.

I still boleh jokes around tapi bila malam tu, I cerita balik kat Hezri what had happened, I cried.

Post trauma? walaupun I takde major injuries, takde patah tulang etc. tapi Masya Allah, leher and bahu bengkak. ada bruises on my body here and there.
I memang macam robot. Stay still, tak boleh move around sangat. Hezri bawak I ke KL terus on Sunday sebab takut takde orang nak jaga kat Gerik. Then our wedding reception is on this coming saturday. dalam minggu ni kalau boleh dia tak nak I on the road sangat.

I tak boleh tunduk, so Hezri memang take a good care of me. Tolong pakaikan baju. tolong I mandi, tolong sikat rambut.Sebab I tak boleh angkat tangan lebih dari bahu. Nak baring pun Hezri kena tolong.
And I rasa nak nangis everytime I teringat macam mana I terbabas tu. macam mana bunyi kuat berdentum, bunyi kaca pecah. I still ingat macam mana I mengigil dalam kereta polis on the way to hospital gerik. I boleh cerita pasal tu tapi bila I duk seorang or baring pandang siling, the memories came and I rasa sangat takut and nak nangis. Bila duk dalam kereta, I cepat terkejut. Bunyi kuat sikit je terkejut.

 Everyone yang jumpa I kat hospital sangat amaze sebab I tak pengsan and  I manage to stay calm. Even the polices puji cakap I kuat semangat. So I know deep down I seorang yang strong and I can get through this. I kena try drive again. I kena hidup normal like I used to do.
Try my best jangan layan perasaan tu and stay strong. I takmau terbaring di hospital/rumah macam orang sakit.

Insya Allah, I can get through this. I know I can.

Aku terima nikahnya...

Salam

Alhamdullilah, dengan sekali lafaz :)

After five years, finally Hezri and I sah sebagai suami isteri.

Doakan yang terbaik for both of us :)

xoxo

Pre wedding photoshoot

Salam all

23.2.2013, kami buat photoshoot di padang ragut UPM. Process nak dapat permission sangat lah tough. tapi alhamdullilah, finally tercapai juga niat nak ambil gambar kat sini :)

Kitorang sampai di UPM pukul 615 lagi, break subuh & make up kat masjid UPM. Dalam pukul 7 pagi baru gerak cari padang ragut ni. Sesat sikit hehe

Photo-photo ni minta photographer print out and hang kat guestbook deco

Few photos to share :)

Gambar dua ni untuk photo canvas letak di entrance rumah

It was so hard to pick a theme for the photoshoot. I want to do something different but then, I nak mengimbau memori silam masa mula bercinta dengan hezri dulu. Kitorang selalu picnic together.

Bosan, I know. tapi I rasa it reflect our relationship. :)

At first, I nak ambil gambar kat KLIA, sebab masa bercinta dulu I asyik tunggu summer holiday, waiting for him to arrive at KLIA then send him off when summer ends. tapi kalau kat KLIA tak banyak tempat yang lawa nak ambil gambar, lagipun mesti ramai orang.

Make Up Artist : Make Up by Fara

Sangat punctual. I suka :) Fara sampai dulu before I. I memula risau gak, sebab nak start makeup 630am.

takut lah orang lambat ker ape. rupanya, dia lagi awal dari I. Kalau depan-depan memang nampak tebal sangat make up. I cam risau. Tapi bila photog ambil gambar, eh nampak nice and very natural. macam tak make up. I think we all need to trust our mua do her job kan? They know what they are doing.

I know Fara from Blogger Bride Gathering last month kat Flora Terrace.

Photographer : Kameradansa

Kameradansa is my official photographers for the wedding. I ambil complete package with them, from pre wedding photoshoot, solemnization, reception and post wedding. Our first experience together memang fun!

Photoshoot kali ni, ambil masa for four hours. Panas terik tak payah cakap lah, tapi semua nya best.

Dorang banyak idea and maybe photographer muda so macam sekepala. It was so easy working with them.

And Aliff Alip ( the principal) memang melayan je karenah I ni. bila ada masalah with venue, he comes up with Plan B. Ni yang I suka. memang dorang involve in everything.

Hope anda semua enjoy the photos :)

xoxo!

Alhamdullilah. Sudah selesai :)

Salam all,

Alhamdullilah, my wedding day dah selesai ( for my side ). Semua berjalan lancar accordingly. Ada few mistakes here and there tapi bukan major. Bila you organize big events, you tak boleh expect semua akan running perfectly. Tu je yang I keep in mind tapi bersyukur sangat sebab takde masalah besar yang jadi.
Semua ada solution :)

A lil sneak peek on the events.



My super awesome photographers and videographers. Ada 5 of them.

After majlis selesai, makcik makcik semua sibuk book bunga nak bawak balik rumah memasing hehe

After malam akad nikah selesai, sempat lagi camwhore. hehe I betul-betul suka my make up that night by Amy Touch, even dah menangis tersedu-sedu tapi cer tengok my make up, it lasts until the night end.

Wedding dress drama. will talk about it later.

Geng photographers and videographers. Semua kemas and macho that night.

Entrance decorations.

Tengah pasang pelamin masa ni

Doorgift for rombongan

Tengok lah bilik air I penuh dengan bunga. Macam kat kedai pulak

Getting ready for reception event.

Banyak mende nak cerita, banyak mende nak share tapi wait until I get photos from my photographers this friday :)

xoxo!

Not bride material at all!

Salam all,

I baru start cuti hari ni. Esok is my wedding day. Wehuuuuu!
I am now lying on my bed. Resting. Tak feeling so well. Nak berehat sekejap and do few errands lagi. Sampai pukul 12 je leh berehat. I ada appointment kat dental clinic pukul 4pm. Before that nak pergi amek tudung yang dah tempah. Amek baju sanding. Hantar balloons to fill in helium gas. N a few stuffs lagi tak beli. Girls, my advice is amek wedding leave lama sikit before your wedding date. I cannot squeeze to do everything in one day. And ni suddenly tak sihat plak :(
Oh. Lori and bunga from kl dah sampai around 5am this morning so bilik i dah penuh dengan bunga. Rasa macam flora festival.

Xoxo!

Dugaan

Salam all,

Ahad lepas, H took me to dinner. Last dinner as a couple. Sebab next time when we see each other again is on our solemnization night :)

So during dinner, kitorang teringat kenangan bercinta 5 tahun lepas. Masa H kat Auckland and I was in Penang.
I was so happy that night.

After dinner, H hantar I pergi bus station. Masa stop kat roundabout near Duta Station tu, tiba tiba je, DUMMM!
Ada kereta hit us from behind. I tak pakai seatbelt masa tu, and sambil makan ice cream. Apa lagi, tertonyoh lah ice cream tuh kat muka. ( quite funny bila fikir balik)

H and that guy ( yang langgar kitorang tu) terus pergi nearest pump station. Nasib kitorang agak baik sebab lelaki tu admit salah dia. So senang lah nak settle. Cuma terkejut lah sebab kuat jugak kena hentak tu.

I missed my bus that night tapi alhamdullilah semua selamat. Dugaan orang nak kahwin...

Pre wedding photoshoot - The venue

Salam all

Pagi tadi baru setel pre wedding photoshoot. Alhamdullilah, semua went well.

Theme untuk pre wedding is picnic. I memang dah lama teringin nak ambil gambar kat padang ragut UPM sebab ada pokok dalam cerita 'Lagenda budak setan' tu. So bila i cerita kat few friends, nak photoshoot situ. Ramai yang cakap 'Tak payah lah. Leceh lah situ nak masuk kena ada surat bla bla'

Aik, belum cuba dah give up? :)
I would like to try. So i called pihak taman pertanian UPM. Tanya procedure macam mana nak mintak permission masuk kawasan tu. Ada entrance fee ker ape kan.
Buat surat apa semua. Honestly, memang agak leceh prosedur dia. I ambil masa 3 minggu nak settle semua. Surat misplace lah. Fax tak dapat lah. Last-last ade lah seorang pegawai UPM yang sangat baik hati tolong i.
I memang tak dapat access lagi and I macam give up dah. I discuss dengan photographer, kita buat plan b lah. Pegi tempat lain. I redha lah. Maybe bukan rezeki I.

Suddenly, I dapat call from UPM on friday morning, inform surat i dah lulus and I bole guna kawasan tu, cuma i kena call 3 pengawai lagi utk inform photoshoot on saturday. Last minute sangat sebab shoot on saturday, sehari sebelum baru dapat access. Yayy alhamdullilah. Dapat jugak akhirnya.

I sampai UPM around 630am. Makeup and settle semua kat masjid UPM. Pukul 715am gerak cari padang ragut tu. Sesat pulak. We missed the sunrise moment.

Kul 8am baru jumpa padang tu. So start shooting sampai pukul 12pm.
Panas juga tapi worth every second. Hope dapat laa gambar gambar yang lawa :)

Tapi kawasan tu memang lawa sangat with green grass and pokok pokok.
Masa i duduk kat atas bukit and tengok pemandangan, Masya Allah. Lawa betul.

Akan cerita banyak lagi bila dapat gambar nanti :)

xoxo!