Sunday, November 28, 2010
to tell you the truth, im not sad. i hardly know him. he was my mum's cousin. and
memang jarang sangat jumpa, even on hari raya. when my mum mentioned his name, i cam.. sape eh? seriously, i cant recall. but i went there anyway, to show respect.
Masa mula-mula sampai, orang tengah mandikan jenazah. and i salam with his mother, his wife. both of them looked so strong eventho their eyes filled with tears but they still managed to smile. Selepas mandikan jenazah, orang tengah kapankan, i was still standing there, behind the curtain. sambil sandar kat dinding. and my mum whispered to me, that was his eldest son, the one who helped alot during that time. then my mum said, that was his daughter, 2nd child. just came back from matrik pahang. i stared at her, she was wearing blue jeans and a shirt with white tudung.
and she was sobbing. i felt sorry for her, it must be hard. i dont know what to do if im at her age. losing a father. After that, tok imam panggil siapa-siapa yang nak jumpa arwah buat kali terakhir. i was still there, at the same spot, they pulled the curtain aside so i can see arwah clearly. and i saw his family one by one came to kiss his forehead. it was a very sad view for me.
after his daughter show her last respect, she came and standing next to me. then my mum introduced me to her, "ni lah anak cik zu" and i kerutkan dahi at my mum. " eeeee, what do u expect me to say to her??" then i looked at her, she was crying and her head was down, she wasnt able to look at anyone right now. so i touch her shoulder and hug her. i dont know why i did that. and she cried even harder T_T
so i said to her, " Abah dah selesai dah tugas dia kat dunia, kita belum lagi, kakak kena kuat lah, kena jaga adik-adik, jaga mak. kena teruskan hidup."
dont ask me why, i called her kakak, i know she is wayy younger than me. maybe to address her as a mature young lady. she nodded and didnt say a word. she was crying and crying, and at one point, she found it so hard to breath. her aunt, said, "tak baik meratapi jenazah"
but i dont blame her. it was her father. who passed away. maybe she got something to say to him but she cant, maybe she thot if there anything she could do, but she couldnt.
we just dont know how it feels, to be in her shoes.
i myself not dare to just think of it.
i dont know what to say to her, i wasnt prepared.
ive been thru this situation before, i lost my uncle two years ago, he died in front of me,
and i never talked about that day, with anyone, even my mum.
i wasnt ready to talk about it. he was my closest uncle and i used to spend my holiday at his house, he was more than an uncle. he was like my second dad.
maybe its time for me to overcome my fear and talk about it.
but not today.
we waited until the funeral ended. selepas jenazah dikebumikan, baru balik.
and to tell you the truth, i cried in the car, all the way back.
i tried to pull myself together but failed. i was sad, because arwah had young children, the youngest is 4 year old. i was sad to see his daughter, the one i told you about, she will be okay, but i dont know when.
and in the car, my dad told us, ada 3 perkara yang perlu disegerakan dalam dunia ni,
1. kalau masuk waktu, segerakan solat.
2. kalau berlaku kematian, segerakan pengebumian.
3. kalau mempunyai anak perempuan yang cukup umur, segerakan perkahwinannya.
and also, kalau berlaku kematian dan kelahiran, diharuskan menziarahi majlis kelahiran dahulu.
sebab kita harus mengalu-alukan kehadiran bayi/ umat islam yang baru datang.
those were the two things i learned tonight.
alfatihah buat arwah and takziah buat ahli keluarga yang lain.
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Ikan Siakap - diperap dengan bawang putih, halia dan secubit garam.
Salut dengan tepung jagung sebelum goreng.
untuk sos mangga :
Bawang putih dan halia diketuk.
Cili/ Carrot/ Lada Benggala
Sos Cili Thai
garam dan serbuk perasa.
mangga - diparut
Mula-mula goreng dulu ikan siakap sehingga garing.
Masukkan garam dan serbuk perasa.
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
am gonna reveal my wedding dream, which i never talked with anyone else before :P
here it is :
1. How old are you?
am sweet 22 :) until 23rd Dec 2010
2. Are you single?
i am taken.
3. At what age do you think you'll get married?
im flexible. bila sampai seru, jalannnn :D
4. Do you think you will be marrying the person you're with now?
i hope so. lets pray for it.
5. If not, who do you want to marry?
Jodoh dan ketentuan di tangan Allah :)
6. Who will be your bride maids/ best man?
ermm, that is tricky, i have a few on my mind but by that time, im not sure if they will be available or not. or maybe, little cousins demanding to be ones.
7. Do you want a garden/beach/ traditional wedding?
Mmmm, maybe a garden wedding, if i have enough money of course :P
I didnt care much about the cakes' layer. as long as it tasted good, im okay with it.
Sapu loyang/mangkuk dengan butter supaya puding tu tak melekat nanti.
Masukkan roti dalam adunan tadi and gaul rata.
kalau ada kismis and cinnamon powder. boleh masukkan time ni.
then tuang adunan dalam mangkuk yang digriskan tadi.
Bakar dalam oven dengan suhu 180C selama 40minit.
Dah masak, keluarkan biar dia sejuk dengan suhu bilik selama 15minit.
Then masukkan dalam fridge, biar beberapa jam.
i tinggal dalam fridge satu malam. saja nak bagi dia sejuk sikit.
dah siap dah! boleh potong and makan. and if suka, boleh buat sos custard makan dengan puding ni.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
so here it is :
28th oct 2010
510pm - Flight from Penang to LCCT
630pm - Arrived at LCCT
945pm - Flight from LCCT to Kota Kinabalu
1215am - Arrived at Kota Kinabalu
.Take a cab to Tunehotel.
29th oct 2010
730am- cab came and picked me to Sutera Marina Jetty.
815am - Arrived at Sutera Marina Jetty, go to Gaya and Sapi Island with Downdivebelow.
430pm- Back from Gaya and Sapi Island, Bimaz Tour Car Rental sent a car to the jetty.
.Use the car to go back to Tunehotel.
700pm- Dinner at Salut Seafood Restaurant.
.Tour around 1borneo mall which is situated next to the Tunehotel.
30th oct 2010
630am - check out from Tunehotel. Roadtrip to Kota Kinabalu Park, Ranau, Kundasang.
530 pm - Check in Cititel Express Kota Kinabalu. Return the car to Bimaz Tour Car Rental.
645pm - Walk to Filipino Market. Dinner and checking out KK city.
10pm - Return to hotel, packing up.
31st Oct 2010
7ooam - breakfast and check out from Cititel
730am - Cab arrived and picked me up. go to the airport.
925am - Flight to LCCT.
330pm- Flight to Penang.
i planned my itenary one month before the actual date.
then i need to change it again because i need space to study for my final exam.
the original plan was to go to Brunei from kota kinabalu.
maybe next time. eventhough, i did not spend my time to the fullest but
i still enjoyed it to bits. :)
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Malam last kat KK, i tidur kat Cititel Express Kota Kinabalu hotel. pilih hotel ni sebab location dia, betul-betul tengah city. boleh jalan je pergi mana-mana. Sampai hotel around 530pm, rest mandi-mandi then Bimaz company call, inform nak ambil kereta. lepas bagi kunci kereta terus pergi Filipino Market. Sebab orang cakap ada seafood murah-murah. jalan kaki je from hotel, dekat sangat, around 10minit. tapi agak cuak jugak sebab dah start nak gelap. and tambah tak selesa bila lalu orang mcm pandang-pandang ( ker i je yang perasan :P) tapi memang feeling tak selamat tu ada lah. Sampai kt Filipino Market, ramai sangat orang. terus pergi ikan bakar stall. and pilih-pilih sotong and udang yang fresh. nak makan ikan bakar tapi semua ikan yang besar-besar je. xlarat kot nak habiskan. last-last ambil ikan pari, yang dah potong. even tak suka sangat ikan pari, layan je lah. tu je ikan paling kecil. harga semua lebih kurang rm35.
then i saw something in the aquarium, so i asked the staff, "is that catsharks? are you selling them?" the staff tuh cakap yes, it is, siap recommend lagi, catshark ni sedap, sekor berapa ratus tah. what a shame! i was hoping to see one masa diving tapi last-last jumpa dalam aquarium. catsharks are harmless animals. i still dont get the idea why kena makan catsharks. i was abit pissed off at the moment sebab i thought catsharks are protected animals. tapi i google and i found out they are not.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Im so happy today!!! just finished my last paper. Application in Mathematics. it was so tough :(
but i dont care!
eventho the exam is finally over. i still got alot to do. the dinner is tomorrow!!!
am hoping all the hard work is gonna pay off!
im lack of sleep, energy and im hungry, and i got alot to do.
all the girls are busy shopping for the dress and im busy calling the hotel manager.
checking the guest list, inform the vips about tomorrow's event, the list goes on.
while all of them busy dressing up tomorrow evening. im gonna be at the hotel 3 hours earlier
to make sure everything will be in a good condition.
of course, im jealous. i wanna have that extra time to make up too!
and fyi, i still din hv any dress for the dinner.
guess im gonna win the ugly duckling award tomorrow :(
ada sapa-sapa generous nak derma dress for me?
Monday, November 8, 2010
macam filem melayu dulu-dulu kan?
hot springs dia ni, bukan macam from bukit ker apa. dorang dah renovate tempat tuh. buat macam pool, macam jacuzzi, just bukak pipe je. air panas keluar. hehe tak nature sangat lah for me.
then after that dalam pukul 4pm, i terus gerak balik kota kinabalu sebab dah mengantuk and sangat letih, nak kena drive lagi and i did something stupid. i was so sleepy masa drive, and try drive selaju yang mungkin,sebab nak cepat sampai hotel. pastu i potong kereta banyak lah. then ade one time tu, i nak potong kereta tapi ada kereta lain kat depan, so i kena masuk my lane balik, tapi kat lane tu dah ada kereta kelisa putih, so i cam menghimpit ke kereta dia, die pun apa lagi, honk i, kuat gile. memang salah i pun. ada couple dalam kereta tuh. punyalah dia marah, dia macam kejar my car, sebab i was in front them. silaplah dia racing dengan ayya :P
lama jugak dia kejar, sebab dorg pon heading to KK city jugak. sampai one time, i memang kt depan, i langgar traffic light ( baru merah je time tu :P) tp dorang sangkut kt traffic light tu. i gelak lah puas hati, tp tak lama pastu, tiba-tiba i nampak dorang balik, ada kt belakang kereta. arghh! siot jeh. dorang nak try potong kereta i dengan masuk lane kiri, konon nak ke depan lah. tapi depan kejap je sebab ada lori kat lane tu, so lambat lah jadinya, bila dah sampai kk sikit, jam plak. banyak kereta. so i xnampak dah dorang. kira i menang kn? kan?
hehehe baru dua hari kt kk dah buat perangai. tp thanks to them. i tak ngantok terus dah pastu :P
Sunday, November 7, 2010
mussels masak halia.
sangat sedap and fresh!
Lala goreng cili kering.