22

is a very compatible number, isnt it?

i is turning 22 tomorrow. how time flies so fast!
i am now officially an adult, and allowed to engage with adult activities.
(its not what ur thinkin!) but obviously there are alot more waiting,
commitment, responsibilities and loads of STRESS. happy stress, comfort stress hopefully.
referring to my previous post, im finally happy now :D
know why?

i talked to hezri about all the reasons why i am unhappy
and i realized i was over think. i focus and hope for the negative result
instead of solving problems. i put on more pressure. not good, huh?
after a very verryyy long phone conversation, i was so happy
i talked it through. because i feel more alive and happier than ever
and now i can pull back my words to hezri, it is the worst birthday ever!
haha i know, i was such a drama queen.

well, about my birthday tomorrow. no restaurant reservation and all,
but a very comfort birthday celebration. at home :)
its gonna be all about families and we are doing comfort food.
just like the one i always dream of.
all the cousins will be here, and my aunt will be preparing loads of dishes.
and its gonna be special.
because, all of us will masak2 together. one of my cousin requested, to buy big apple
doughnuts instead of birthday cake. and i thought it was great,
and unique. its such a good idea :)
its gonna be delightful.
cant wait to meet them all tomorrow.
yeay!


xoxo

The pseudo

three days more. towards my birthday.

i feel this weird feeling in my stomach, like u want to cry for no reason. 

obviously not butterflies.

earlier today, dad brought me to car showrooms. said i can pick up any cars that 

i like for my birthday prezie. happy? no, not even close. 

i know dad was really upset because i cant pick up anything and im not happy.

its not about the car, or anything else. i appreciate it. 

its just.. i dunno,

i have everything in my hand. everything that i want,

but maybe i hve what i want but not what i need.

theres a huge diff between what u want n what u need.

im not very happy these past few days.

i used to claim i got a pocketful of sunshine but not anymore.

i feel like theres something missing. 

im turning 22 in a few days,

a lil older and hopefully wiser. 

i used to turn to someone when im sad or lonely. 

obviously he cant be there anymore.

i normally woke up at 430am or 5am lately.

dunno why. its a plan wake up. its a sudden wake up. 

and i cant go back to sleep until 8am or 9am. 

one should not be sad or alone on her birthday right?
put up a pesudo smile,

happy front

and go out.

u'll be fine

:)

the planner

halo people.

this entry is dedicated to the guys :)

when ur girlfriend plans to take u out doing things that we like,
such as ice skating, watching love movies, go to opera and do girly stuff,
we will keep on asking the same questions,
"are u bored?"
"do u find this interesting?"
"are u sleepy?"
"are u okay?"
so, please. do not freak out. esp when we suddenly said sorry.
apologize for bringing u out today.
even worse when u need to skip ur football session.
we feel guilty. we just want to plan something interesting for u.
just put us in ur shoes.
if one day. u invite ur girlfriend to the stadium.
to watch a football match. u also might think she will feel uncomfortable
with the bad smell, the smoker, the shouting and the crowd.
u will asks her the same questions.
even worse, when she need to accompany u and missed her korean series show.

but we are okay. it doesnt matter. as long as u are happy.
same goes to the girls. u try to do something memorable and meaningful
and think ur partner might feels boring and all.
dun worry.
plan something sincerely
insya Allah
hes gonna love it.
and stop asking nonsense questions.
u dun hv to ask.
its all written on their faces :)

x0x0

The days

Rise and shine people. :)

tried to login into fb a few times but failed.
i forgot my m*yb*nk2u id. and password. crap :(
wont be able to book any flight ticket or shoppin online T_T

this december will be full with weddings and engagement parties.
no matter how much i love the happy parties but i got alot to run too.
sigh*
ikhwani came to my house and spent a few nites there.
im so glad hving her around. we talked all nite long, catching up.
i was wearing henna with my cousins
ended up causing all the phones turned to red.
aishhhhh
now need to buy new housing for them :(


till then
xoxo

Frozenly happy :)

halo people.

the rainy month has finally arrived and im not so glad to see her.
its not my fav season or fav month,
dunno when i start to hate december so much.
eventho my birthday is in it.
but i love birthdays. :)

sounded peculiar? u can ignore me.
this week is a very busy one for me. will be flying to kl ths wednesday.
come and send me up k? hehe.
i need to run some errands, before off to kl. since my folks will be arriving
in msia this thursday.
hopefully i can get my new lappy asap.

till then


xoxo

The Super Girlfriend

ignore the title. i had no idea where it came from.


aloha people!

when ur relationship comes to an end, obviously u went to evry details
where did u go wrong, was it something u say,
or u do. or because u put on weights.
u wonder about the other girl, is she prettier than u,
or has flawless skin, or maybe her hair sparkles when it catch the light.

but sometimes, u need to stop all the nonsense thots and
think, "hey maybe its not me, maybe its you. "
maybe its not our fault, maybe its his.
he din see that qualities u hv in u.
maybe u din realize ur in relationship with a blind man.
and dun feel sorry for urself for that broken relationship.
feels sorry for him because he left u.
and if he thinks he got someone better than u,
tell him. "think again".
ur already with him for awhile.
and ur already adapt with his routine, his way of talking.
his way of life and friends.
and hes going to start over with someone new.
believe me. its tough. he need to train his new gf.
and i wonder about the new girl, can she accept ur way of life just like i did?
din think so. if shes a fool like u, then she can ;)

what u can do is,
if ur in a relationship. treat the boyfie well,
understand him, pamper him.
try to be there for him everytime he need u.
respect him. surprise him.
take him out for dinner. dun wait for him to do so.
guys are lembab about this :p
yes, true.
be the super girlfriend.
because if he asks for a break up. then u can happily
let him go.
and u know u did the best u could.
if he cant see that,
he must be a fool.
big fat one.

xoxo

nanite :)

2.29am

halo people. im home now for a very long holiday.
sorry for the long hiatus.
my lappy went to drain. and i think i need a new one.
im at aunt's house now and going to spend a few nights here.
my internet activities are decreasing. yela, i hv no lappy sure laa cant access
the internet. but i did update on twitter once in a while.

i feel uneasy. like there are something in my stomach.
obviously its not butterflies. but something u feel when ur
receiving a bad news.
i dunno why i feel very very uneasy and awry.
because of his social friends?
or his way of life?
u knw what, i always judge a person based on their peers. i know a lot might disagree with me.
but thats my own opinion.
u cant choose ur family but u can choose ur friends.
and u chose friends like 'that', means that ur part of the their world.
then u joined their activities and all.
next ur announcing ur not like them. ur better than them.
but i think. u are.
to the bone.

nanite