Monday, July 4, 2011

There is a price to pay.

salam.

i had a loooooooooong day today. since last week lagi asyik cakap, "long day today". sebab tu jarang dah update blog. start daripada last two weeks kerja asyik tak berhenti. so i thought ok. next week will be better. tapi tak jugak. so bila last week rasa macam lega semua kerja dah habis, tiba-tiba dapat tau JPN nak buat pemantauan and i ada interview pengesahan jawatan on wednesday. kelam kabut balik. and today memang tahan sangat. Jadual full today, masa mengajar darjah 3, kelas sebelah tengah berlatih rekoder. bising sangat. so i need to scream to the max sebab nak bagi satu kelas dengar suara i.

after that masuk kelas darjah 1, and i makin naik hangin. yela, bila mengajar darjah satu ni kena kesabaran yang tinggi. dorang sangat active and semua benda kena cakap, nak suruh salin kena cakap, nak suruh bukak buku kena cakap, nak suruh bawak keluar pensel kena cakap.

habis kelas dalam pukul 1.05pm, i terus masuk toilet..menangis. sebab tak tahan sangat stress and letih. habis menangis, ada kelas tambahan pulak for darjah 6. i rasa dari last week, asyik balik petang je. malam pulak ada extra class, sabtu pulak ada kem LINUS. fail-fail banyak sangat nak kena manage, kadang-kadang rasa mengajar tu tugas nombor dua pula. pengurusan pulak yang claim lagi banyak masa from us. after menangis, otw ke bilik guru terjumpa dengan 2-3 orang budak kelas i, terserempak dengan i, maybe mata still merah dorang concern tanya, kenapa cikgu menangis?

i tak patut complain kan? sepatutnya cikgu kena ikhlas buat kerja, bila complain macam tak ikhlas and tak dapat pahala. tapi i cant help it. im too tired. malam-malam pun stay up buat kerja, macam kat uni pulak. macam ada assignment.
tengok complain lagi T__T kalau dulu, stress je tunggu weekend sebab weekend waktu yang paling precious for me, sama ada i balik rumah or pergi KL release tension tapi now weekend pun kena g sekolah, whats left for me then?

and now i rasa kena buat satu-satu dulu. insya Allah semua akan ok.
pray for me kay, sebab now rasa macam down and tak semangat dah.

xoxo

1 comment:

Breathing.In.Luxembourg said...

Insyaallah semua will be easier.

My mum who was a teacher told me the hardest time for teachers are during their first year. Hope it's true in your case too.

Hold on to your horses cikgu! Things can only get better!

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